Fatal Blunder

I’d prefer to dwell in darkness

Its better this way

It veils my faults

Keeps everything dark and grey

I hate mornings and light

Dour nights no longer give me a fright

Dawn shows me stark reality

Strikes within me a feeling of self pity

I want to melt in crowds

I hate standing out

I’ve seen fingers pointing towards me

I’m suffering enough can they not see?

Every dawn I surrender to sleep

To find myself on a cliff’s edge too steep

To realize I can’t take a step ahead

I can’t drown in darkness of my death bed

I wish I had the power to reverse time

To wash the murder off my hands and undo the crime

The anguish and ache I feel

Comes out in stifled cries

A single tear escapes my weary eyes

If only

If only I hadn’t thought my friend took away what was mine

I would not be awaiting my own decline

I can never forget that fateful night

I ran my blade through her heart there was no fight

Just a cursed calm

A crumpled paper lay in her palm

My daughter had decided to die

She forfeited to death than live a lie

She was crippled and was in pain

My friend’s efforts to stop her went in vain

What my eyes had shown me was a delusion

My daughter’s blood was her own submission

My friend was innocent of my daughter’s murder

Alas! A fatal blunder